Having a Life 101

"Oh freedom is mine
And I know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me

And I'm feeling good."

Michael Buble is a genius. This song sums up exactly how I feel right now. I realized last night...I have a life!! I've never had a life before!

I work 7 hours every day. And then I go home and I find some friends and I invite them to hang out. We hang out, I get home late, go to bed, and do it over again the next day. I make plans on my own with family and go out to dinner with my great grandparents. I went on a date the other night. I'm going to Massachusetts. And to Colorado, even for only 3 days. And I'm doing a 50 mile bike ride with the laurels in my ward which requires training (hello biker muscles!). And....I have a life!!

Lately, I've been feeling very weird. Not bad weird...Very very good weird. I feel free (BOOOOOORN FREEEEEEEEEE. It's a song. Look it up.) I feel so happy, and I find myself at work smiling to absolutely no one. I smile at walls. I smile at my computer. I smile at the ceiling. I'm probably insane.

Yup.

I'm insane.

But it feels so good! I find myself initiating a lot of things more. Instead of sitting at home feeling like a hobo (which I must admit I do a lot), I invite people to hang out. I go out and find things to do with my life. I make plans. I've taken control of my life. And it feels so good!

I feel like I'm maturing. Growing up. But I feel like I'm doing it in a way where I still have fun. I'm....dare I say it...allowing myself to have fun. I feel like I can be myself more. I'm not so shy anymore. I'm not antisocial anymore. I love people! Did you know that? I didn't. People are SO nice! And I've found.....people actually enjoy being around me when I'm myself....I think....

This is the good life....I should have a life more often. :)