So I was on the long drive back from my trip to Colorado today, and I found myself thinking. This wasn't a big deal considering the oh so exciting scenery. ;) My thought...to create a blog! So here I am.
Visiting Colorado was really an interesting thing. I didn't expect to come back having learned more about myself. I mean, I expected to go and visit some friends and family and just have an overall good time. But entering Colorado Springs felt...odd. I don't really have a word for it other than that. It has been over a year since I last went there, and I guess I just wasn't expecting all the changes that have been made. So many new places have been built, 'improved,' just overall changed. It caught me off guard.
I visited with two of my very best friends, and I did have a good time. However, now that I am home, I have realized that it all was just one big blur. I remember doing things with family and friends. I remember everything that happened. But it was all a blur. I realize now that I really wasn't paying attention to anything that was happening as it was happening. I was thinking to much into the future about what would happen when I got home, etc, that I didn't truly enjoy myself.
Before the trip, I promised myself that I would put everything that is bothering me about Utah in the back of my mind. So many things have happened in the past months, and I have truly been going crazy. But I found that easier said than done. Ghosts came to haunt me; ghosts from Utah that were supposed to be gone for the week. So Colorado wasn't the big break I was hoping for. I realize now that I am the type of person who just can't forget things. I would like to change that about myself.
While in Colorado, I also realized that I have been living my life this past while in a frenzy. I haven't been in my body per say. That is something I would like to change about myself.
I also realized that I am more grown up than I would like to be. I over analyze things to the point where I usually don't allow myself to have the fun that I, as a 17 year old, should be having. I would like to change that about myself.
Basically, this blog is a new beginning in my eyes. I know that that sounds really dumb, seeing as how this is basically just typing things onto a screen. However, I like to see it as a way to get my thoughts out and to really just improve myself.

We'll see how this goes...