Awakening

There comes a point in, I'm sure, everyone's life where the days start going by super fast and you finally wake up one morning to find that a whole month or more has past you by without your noticing. Today was my day of awakening, or at least the beginning of my awakening.
I woke up this morning with nothing special planned. I had work, as per usual, and that was it. I would spend the rest of my day at home being lazy after work. And that's exactly what happened. No one popped in to say a surprise hello. Nothing special at all happened today, and yet I find that it has been one of the most exciting days that I have had in a long while.
My mom drove me to work today giving me an opportunity to take in the scenery around me. I make that fifteen minute drive every day, and it has become so monotonous that it is extremely boring. But today, I was able to look around me and see all the beautiful things there are to see. I'm not talking about actual Salt Lake, because, I'm sorry, but Salt Lake will never be beautiful to me. I'm talking about the grass and trees by the capital building, the large rocks by Victory Road, just so many things that I drive past every single day and never really notice.
And then when I got home, I was able to go and do some serious writing like I haven't been able to do for so long. I have been so dazed this past I don't know how long that I have not been able to concentrate long enough to get any writing done. I am seriously excited about what I was able to accomplish in that area today because of how awake I was!
After writing, I was even able to play my piano for the first time in a while. No one was home, which was fantastic because that is the only time I will play. So I sat down and just played. And for the first time, I didn't really care about what it sounded like. After the first song, I wasn't paying attention to hitting the right notes or making it sound absolutely perfect. I usually do, because I am a perfectionist when it comes to my piano. But today was amazing. I thought about things going on in my life, and I felt so excited for everything! And then I would zone back in my piano, and amazingly, I was actually hitting the right notes, and it sounded really good! I have always loved my piano, because when my fingers touch those keys........magic happens inside me, and everything seems alright with the world for those few moments I get to play. But today, it was even more magical, because things were starting to be fixed in my head that have been unscrewed and out of place for so long now.
To top off my great day, I was able to talk to another one of my friends. We are just starting to become friends again after not really speaking for some time due to drifting on both our parts, and it was so much fun. Nothing serious was talked about at all. It was actually very silly, and I feel very stupid for finding so much pleasure in our silliness, but it was so refreshing to laugh and to smile without forcing myself.
I know that I have a long way to go before I'm fully awake again, and even when I reach that point, it will always take work to keep me appreciating every little moment in my life. But I really enjoyed today, and I hope that this starts the process to my happiness.