I hate mother nature. It is may, and warm weather is nowhere in sight. It is depressing me. I have decided that when I grow up and get married, I will convince my husband to move somewhere where it is sunny most of the time. Rain would be nice once a week or so; hot rain, not that cold stuff that makes you miserable. And then I could live my life happy and free.
Do you ever feel as if your mind is somewhere completely different from your body? I feel like that a lot lately. My friend Brynn came here to Utah from Massachusetts a few weeks ago, and it seems like when she left, my mind went with her. I am stuck here in Utah, but my mind is elsewhere. It's a weird feeling. I am trying really hard to get my mind back, but it's not working very well.
I feel like one of the reasons I'm 'gone' is because once Brynn left, it seems lots of people left with her. Not literally, but figuratively. It's kind of a depressing feeling. I tried to force myself back yesterday though. I went to the Ogden Institute at Weber State with some of my friends for a senior night. We ate dinner and got to listen to John Bytheway, and then we had a dance. It was pretty fun. It was raining really hard after, and so Natalie and I danced in it (we're just your regular ol' ballerinas), and Joel kidnapped Alicia (literally picked her up and carried her away) so that he could 'propose' to her in the rain. And then we had an adventurous ride home in the pouring rain, even going so far as to turn onto a one way street. I'm surprised we survived!
I can't wait for college. I want to go and be free to study exactly the things I want to study and to be able to make lots of friends and be free to make choices. I feel like I am more prepared than I should be because of all life has put me through, and so I'm ready to get going.
This has been a very random blog post. I apologize. Haha, wait....no I don't..... ;)
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