So...I have a problem that needs solving. The thing is, every time I come up with a solution, my brain, being the over thinker it is, shoots it down with a million cons. One pro amidst a million cons. You see my problem?
This is my last summer before college. Before adulthood. And what am I doing with it? I'm sitting at a desk for 7 hours every day, minus Saturdays and Sundays, doing pointless work that leaves me inside all day looking at the bright sunshine through a window.
A window.
Now I don't mean to complain. I love working. It gives me something to do (boring as it is), and it is giving me money at the same time. Money is good. Money is very good. You kinda need it for college these days.
The problem...while I sit here in my little office, all of my senior friends are out doing crazy fun things with their 'last summer.' One of them is going to Arizona. Another is going to New Jersey. Two of them are in Massachusetts right now. Another yet is going to Ireland. Another is going just to Bear Lake. Even Bear Lake sounds amazing right now.
By the end of the summer, I will have quite the sum of money saved for college. But will I have anything to say for these three months of my life? Three months of sitting in front of a computer...fun memories.
I am the type of person that never allows much fun into my life. I have responsibilities. I have to be responsible. I have to do my church callings. I have to go to work. I have to make money. I have to prepare for adulthood. I might as well already be an adult with all the fun I let myself have at this point.
The point of this rambling, complaining blog post is....I feel like doing something crazy...Like taking a little bit out of my saved money to do something fun, to go somewhere, anywhere even just for a few days just to have a little bit of my 'last summer,' just to be a kid for one moment more.
But my brain just loves coming up with those cons........
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